Productive Day...All Because I Was Frustrated

When I get frustrated, I cannot sit.  I either have to go to bed and try to sleep or I get in the spastic mode of doing something that needs to be done.  Today was one of those days.  I took my frustration out on my bathroom vanity drawers, under the sinks and the drawers on my nightstand.  I have them organized and accumulated two kitchen trash bags full of junk; some of it years old.  Some of it has made 3 to 4 moves with me.  Ridiculous.  I'm rather proud that I got those chores done even though a bad day is what prompted me to do them.

Next on the list is hubby's closet.  I have begged and pleaded with him to do it.  He works, he broke his elbow and there have been numerous reasons AND excuses why it hasn't been done.  He had his opportunity!!! LOL  I cleaned out my closet recently and I have nothing left much.  I had clothes that were too small, too big, and clothes that I haven't worn in 5 years.  They are gone.  He may walk into his closet and find nothing left.

When the closet is finished, I'll be doing Andrew's room - again.  I had organized all his toys and separated the "baby toys" from the ones he actually plays with now.  Once he realized they were all organized, he wanted to play with everything.  His little friends who come over from time to time also want to play with everything.  The baby toys are going to be packed and moved out.  I want to paint his room and decorate it for a little boy.  I first thought I'd fix it as a guest bedroom, but I never have guests, so it's going to be his room and if by chance someone visits and stays here, they can use his room.   He sleeps with me anyway, so that won't be a big deal.

Greg is using the 4th bedroom as a weight room.  (Sigh)  His weight bench and accessories  prevent me from using it for anything else.

On another note, my internet service with ATT has driven me bonkers today.  It's been cutting on and off all day.  I spent an hour trying to talk to a person with no luck.  Finally, I was able to get online long enough to chat online with someone and a technician will be here tomorrow afternoon.  If they can't fix the problem, I'm going to bite the bullet and change to Comcast service for internet.  It will cost $20 more per month after a year, but I have cancelled garbage pickup service and will be hauling my trash to the county dump and that saves me $20 per month.  So, we'll see what happens.

I was not in the mood to cook a full meal tonight, so I'm making chicken salad.  Another frustration - I asked my son to buy a loaf of bread and a bag of chips on his way home from work.  He went into the store for something he wanted and "forgot" what I'd asked him to bring home.  GRRRR

Jon's been having back pain - severe back pain and has been to the doctor several times.  He has gotten a round of shots and they have not helped.  He was to work a double shift today and had to leave early because the pain was so bad he was in tears.  He is now in the emergency room and I'm waiting anxiously to hear what they have to say.  He's gone before for the same problem and I'm hoping this time they will do all the tests necessary to find out what's causing this.  Please keep him in your prayers.

Right now, I'm listening to American Idol try-outs and dear me.  Some of these people amaze me - not in a good way.  I do not like the audition portion of this show.  They didn't ask me, though.  HA HA HA

I've rambled enough - more than enough.

Be safe~!

The Sun Is Shining!

Although it's cold outside this morning, the sun is shining brightly and what a gift that is to me.  As someone suffering from depression, sunny days are a Godsend.  No matter the circumstances I'm in or problems I have, waking up to a sunny morning lifts my spirits.

As I sit here, I look out the back door and there are numerous birds on the ground pecking around for worms or bugs.  The recent rain has made the ground soft and ripe for their pecking.  I love birds and watching them.  They are so in tune with their surroundings.  (I don't like blackbirds and vultures.)

I was in my garage over the weekend (yes, I smoke) and as I was standing there, two bluebirds swooped down into the edge of the garage and grabbed a piece of dog food.  Two or three other birds had the same idea, but before they got the food, they looked all around and saw me standing there.  They flew away without food.  I wish there was some way I could have let them know I wasn't a danger to them.  I need to fill up my bird feeders.

How many times in life do we see warning signs and ignore them?  Not signs on the road, but a gut feeling that lets us know there is danger ahead?  I know I've done that and have suffered the consequences.  (Nothing illegal at all.)   I'm thankful God forgives and forgets!  There are times when I'm trying to go to sleep that thoughts of past mistakes play havoc with my mind and I wish so much that I could forget them.  I think I've forgiven myself, but try as I may, I cannot forget them and they creep into my mind.  I think that happens to remind me of what I have or have not done and warning signs I ignored.  I don't know why that's necessary at all.  I do know that as I've gotten older, I pay much more attention to the little warning signs that signal danger ahead.  We live and learn.

Do you pay attention to your surroundings and the feeling inside that lets you know there's danger ahead?  If not, you should.  It will save you heartache and trouble in the future. 

Have a wonderful day and if you're blessed with sunshine, stop for a few minutes and be aware of your surroundings.  If nothing else, it will give you a few moments to forget past mistakes and enjoy nature.

Till next time...

Be safe~!