Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Judge Not...

My emotions have been all over the place  the past couple of weeks.   There have been several days I stayed in bed because I was so depressed.  Anyone who hasn't experienced severe depression coupled with bi-polar issues has no clue how sick one is when something triggers depression so severe its  debilitating.  The thoughts during such an episode are irrational because the mental pain level is not easily put into words.

The recent apparent suicide of a country music singer is a tragedy.  My heart goes out to the family she left behind.  I've seen so many comments on AOL and Facebook that have stated the singer was selfish to have ended her life.  Those people do not say RIP for the singer.  Instead they say RIP for the dog she supposedly shot prior to taking her own life.  How insensitive they are.   Having lost an uncle and aunt (my dad's brother and sister) to suicide, it just makes my heart hurt anytime I hear someone has taken their life.  Some of the comments make me angry.  When a family member passes that way, those left have a terrible tragedy to deal with.  We don't need negative comments.  We go through anger because the person didn't reach out to someone, we also are angry that they took themselves from us, their children, spouses if they were married, and the list goes on.  We feel guilty because we didn't see any indication that anything was wrong.  

Judge not lest ye be judged.  Regardless of what your religious  beliefs are, no one has the right to indicate that anyone is going to hell, especially when suicide is involved, period.  First of all, it's very upsetting to the family involved.  It's upsetting to people whose loved ones  ended their lives in years past.  Some religious denominations are notorious for judging people.  Again, JUDGE NOT LEST YE BE JUDGED.  What does that mean?  My opinion is that it means people will be judged by God because they judged another.  It's no one's business to determine what the outcome of someone will be when judgement is given by our Father in Heaven.  

This brings me back to the mental illness issue.  My personal belief is that anyone who takes their own life  was not mentally ill to the point of not being aware of what they were actually doing.  Something in their mind snapped and pushed them over the edge.  People need to research mental illness and keep their judgmental comments to themselves and ask God to forgive them for having judgmental thoughts.  Doing so sincerely insures they are not judged for having those judgmental thoughts to begin with.

To those belonging to religious denominations who immediately judge others based on outward appearances are also in the wrong.  Just saying...

Those of us who have the mental illness of manic depression/bipolar, or just plain old severe depression would appreciate negative comments not being made by people who have no idea what its like.  If they walked a mile in our shoes, especially on those days we can hardly put one foot in front of the other, they most likely would just shut up.  They may even show a little kindness instead of judging.

Wow.  I was on a soap box for sure this morning.   I'll step down now.  I'm going to have a wonderful, productive day.  Sometimes it's necessary to "get things off my chest" here in this safe place called blog land.  

May your day be blessed and happy.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Jon, Brenda and Baby Brown

This post is written with more love than could ever be put into words.  I'm so proud of my son and his wife (my daughter-in-love).  
They are pregnant and we've all been so excited!  It's their first child together.  Below is the most current picture of my Grand Baby Brown.
I was so thrilled that they invited me to go along for the ultrasound!  Seeing the baby and watching its little heart beat brings a feeling to this Nana that is indescribable.  It bonds me with Jon and Brenda in a way I can't explan.,  I love my Grand Baby and his parents.

While we are so excited they are pregnant, we were dealt a blow when they were told that Baby Brown has a birth defect; a defect that is fatal.  I won't go into the details, but Jon and Brenda had a difficult decision to make:  terminate the pregnancy or continue to carry their child.  They chose to continue to carry their precious special baby.  When they told Hubby and me, we were beyond thrilled.

Tears have been shed, our hearts have hurt, days have been spent unable to get out of bed and face the day. Yesterday was one of those days for me.  I can't begin to imagine how hard it is on Jon and Brenda.  It's not about me, it's about them and Baby Brown.  They know I'm here for them 24/7.  They know my concern is for them and their baby.

This morning I awoke and looked at the bracelet I wear 24/7.  I purchased it after they found out they were pregnant and had no idea what would transpire in the days to come.
As I looked at the cross and remembered who is in control, brings peace,  gives life, knows  why things happen, I remembered a cherished verse in The Bible.  I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  In the days and months ahead, we are all going to enjoy Jon and Brenda's pregnancy.  There will be days that are emotional and difficult.  I hope all of us will cling to the promise that God is with us 24/7 and that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".